Monday, July 26, 2010

Masquerading...

Ever felt like you're not being who you're supposed to be? As if you're not fulfilling your God-assigned role in this world? Pretending to be something you're not? I do. Maybe I'm not dressed like a lobster like my grandson, Cannon, is in this picture, but there are times, nonetheless, when I feel as though I'm masquerading as someone I'm not.

A writer, for instance.

There are many mornings when I sit down in front of this computer monitor and ask myself, "What now?" I never get an answer--not from me, anyway. But there are times when God Himself gives me a nudge on the back of my head as if to say, "Go on now. Be who I made you to be. You may not feel like a writer, but that's who you are. Live with it."

So I do. Some days I'm able to pull it off; other days I look (and feel) like a writer about as much as Cannon resembles a lobster without his costume. But he's a pretty convincing lobster when he is wearing it, so I guess the least I can do is be a convincing writer when God tells me to put my writer costume on.

I just wish I looked as darned cute.

Until the next time...

3 comments:

Linda Glaz said...

Just keep taking those encouragements from God and keep writing. I know there's another story in there. Don't ever quit. And who could be as cute as that little squirt?

Deborah Dee Harper said...

Thanks, Linda! I'll keep at it :-)

Suzanne said...

I can really relate to this. I'm not one of those who has been writing for years and years, so some days trying to convince myself that I truly am a writer even though I'm not published yet can be a chore.

On top of that, I have so many other hats to wear (mother, wife, homeschool mom, blogger, editor, critiquer, friend, daughter) that I sometimes can't tell which one I need to be wearing and when. LOL